Just for a thought!

I once shared with somebody my thought "may gusto ako gawin pero di kO alam kung anO!" =(. Call it pathetic or watever! But that's exactly what i'm feeling. It's like an itchyness you suddenly want to get rid off. It's a goal without a clear objectives, or, maybe i'm still in the process of identifyng or finding it within myself. What I really like, what I really want to be. You suddenly feel that way, and if you failed to do so, you're incomplete beneath. Contentment would be the issue. Self-satisfaction is the main dilemma.

Several terms from now, i would be receiving my college diploma. *hopefully!*. My dad asks me where do I want to work, what are my plans after graduation, when i'm going to have my most-awaiting-ojt for them and stuffs like that. And me being the a-little-bit stubborn daughter always give them the same answer as before "I still don't know" with the main mentality at the back of my mind "it's to early to think about that". But as time flies, i'm becoming aware why my parents keep asking me the same question whenever that topic blooms from nowhere.

I realized I should be thinking about my future. I should be mature in terms of perspective about life. I'm not getting any younger! Instead i should be moving forward. I should start considering that's there reallly a life waiting for me after college! It just depends which path will i take, which opportunity will i grab, and which destiny will I embrace. Either way, it may lead to failure or success.

Questions kept lingering in my mind: " What i really want to be, what I really want to do in my life." Somehow, i got answers! (of course) I want to work after collge (who else doesn't want right?) I want to earn money on my own. Stepping out of college means more responsibility, more freedom. Freedom to choose, to speak, to decide. Maybe that's what I'm anticipating all along. I want to express myself. It's like unlocking the chains that seems to be in your bare hands for so long. I know it was for my own good. But honestly, I did wait for the time when i will be old enough to do whatever i like! to say what's on my mind, to express who I really am!

Maybe I haven't decided what plans i'm going to follow after college. I know it's one step at a time. But one thing for sure, I will follow the things that will make me happy, that will keep me satisfied. I know life is a journey, and along the path you'll you gonna picked lessons that will change or make you a better person. But I believe that happiness leads to contentment. I may not have the grandest job or the highest person paid as long as i'm happy with what i'm doin, it all goes well. =)

Mga lagalag!

I looooove dis pic. We call it "Loser pic" haha! Ang kyut ni mumay dito. Pabida ang bruhaa!! hehe! lolz! Asa gitna kse. Pero ang kukulit namen. Walang kasawaan! Hay. kelan ka kaya mag kkabOypren mae?? waheheh! Anong kOnesksyOn?! Anyway, ayun! Yun lang naman ang ngyari sa mumunting paglalakwatsa namen! hehe..
*andun kame sa sidewalk. Sa gilid ng intramuros golf course. Kumakaen ng chicken skin na mabenta sa mga bruhaa! Umiisip ng sOlusyon sa problema ni dora. naghahanap ng sign. Para kame mga pulubi. haha! Para kame pinagsakluban ng langit at lupa! parang naubusan ng pamasahe pauwe! hahah! pero keri lang! magkkasama namen kame! =)) At sa hulog nga ng langit, dumating and mga frendship na guys. hehe. wala lang. kaya napadpad kame sa españa ng di oras! heheheh!*

Kapit kamay!

Pinipilit. Umaasa. MerOn pa rin liwanag sa dulO ng madilim na daan. Sa tuwing akala mO di kna makakabangOn, may mga taO paring pilit pinapatatag ang lOOb mO.Mga nagmamahal sa'yo. Talaga nga ditO mo makikita at mararamdaman kung sinO ang totoo at hindi sa mga kaibigan mO. Kung sinO ang handang dumamay at magmalasakit. Kung sinO ang gagawin ang lahat makita ka lang masaya muli.
PerO bakit ganOn, kung anO ung gustO mO.. minsan tadhana pa ang naglalayO sa'yo. Mahirap ba talaga mangarap? Mahirap ba talaga umasam ng simple? Mahirap ba talaga maging masaya sa gustO mO?
Dumadating ka puntong hindi mO na alam ang gagawin. Hindi mO alam kung kaninO ka lalapit. PrO andun pa rin sa puso at isip mO na hindi ka NYA papabayaan. A friend told me once "God is always on time" I always keep that in mind. Kaya di pa rin akO nawawalan ng pag-asa. Na sa darating na bukas, isang masayang ngiti na and mamumutawi sa aking mga labi.
PerO nagpapasalamat akO dahil nakatagpO akO ng mga totoong kaibigan. Di akO nawawalan ng pagasa kasi anjan ka. Kapit kamay! Parehas man tayO ng dinadala, ramdam kO na pilit lang nten pinapalakas ang loob ng isa't isa kahit alam natin sa sarili mismO, di din naten alam kung kelan nga darating ung panahOn o araw na hihihintay nten parehO.
Wag kang bibitiw! MalayO pa ang lalakbayin natin. Madame pa tayO pagsubOk na pagsasamahan. Madame pa tayong pangarap na magkasama nating tutuparin.
Wag malumbay. Hold On.......*dorabee*