Just for a thought!

I once shared with somebody my thought "may gusto ako gawin pero di kO alam kung anO!" =(. Call it pathetic or watever! But that's exactly what i'm feeling. It's like an itchyness you suddenly want to get rid off. It's a goal without a clear objectives, or, maybe i'm still in the process of identifyng or finding it within myself. What I really like, what I really want to be. You suddenly feel that way, and if you failed to do so, you're incomplete beneath. Contentment would be the issue. Self-satisfaction is the main dilemma.

Several terms from now, i would be receiving my college diploma. *hopefully!*. My dad asks me where do I want to work, what are my plans after graduation, when i'm going to have my most-awaiting-ojt for them and stuffs like that. And me being the a-little-bit stubborn daughter always give them the same answer as before "I still don't know" with the main mentality at the back of my mind "it's to early to think about that". But as time flies, i'm becoming aware why my parents keep asking me the same question whenever that topic blooms from nowhere.

I realized I should be thinking about my future. I should be mature in terms of perspective about life. I'm not getting any younger! Instead i should be moving forward. I should start considering that's there reallly a life waiting for me after college! It just depends which path will i take, which opportunity will i grab, and which destiny will I embrace. Either way, it may lead to failure or success.

Questions kept lingering in my mind: " What i really want to be, what I really want to do in my life." Somehow, i got answers! (of course) I want to work after collge (who else doesn't want right?) I want to earn money on my own. Stepping out of college means more responsibility, more freedom. Freedom to choose, to speak, to decide. Maybe that's what I'm anticipating all along. I want to express myself. It's like unlocking the chains that seems to be in your bare hands for so long. I know it was for my own good. But honestly, I did wait for the time when i will be old enough to do whatever i like! to say what's on my mind, to express who I really am!

Maybe I haven't decided what plans i'm going to follow after college. I know it's one step at a time. But one thing for sure, I will follow the things that will make me happy, that will keep me satisfied. I know life is a journey, and along the path you'll you gonna picked lessons that will change or make you a better person. But I believe that happiness leads to contentment. I may not have the grandest job or the highest person paid as long as i'm happy with what i'm doin, it all goes well. =)

Mga lagalag!

I looooove dis pic. We call it "Loser pic" haha! Ang kyut ni mumay dito. Pabida ang bruhaa!! hehe! lolz! Asa gitna kse. Pero ang kukulit namen. Walang kasawaan! Hay. kelan ka kaya mag kkabOypren mae?? waheheh! Anong kOnesksyOn?! Anyway, ayun! Yun lang naman ang ngyari sa mumunting paglalakwatsa namen! hehe..
*andun kame sa sidewalk. Sa gilid ng intramuros golf course. Kumakaen ng chicken skin na mabenta sa mga bruhaa! Umiisip ng sOlusyon sa problema ni dora. naghahanap ng sign. Para kame mga pulubi. haha! Para kame pinagsakluban ng langit at lupa! parang naubusan ng pamasahe pauwe! hahah! pero keri lang! magkkasama namen kame! =)) At sa hulog nga ng langit, dumating and mga frendship na guys. hehe. wala lang. kaya napadpad kame sa españa ng di oras! heheheh!*

Kapit kamay!

Pinipilit. Umaasa. MerOn pa rin liwanag sa dulO ng madilim na daan. Sa tuwing akala mO di kna makakabangOn, may mga taO paring pilit pinapatatag ang lOOb mO.Mga nagmamahal sa'yo. Talaga nga ditO mo makikita at mararamdaman kung sinO ang totoo at hindi sa mga kaibigan mO. Kung sinO ang handang dumamay at magmalasakit. Kung sinO ang gagawin ang lahat makita ka lang masaya muli.
PerO bakit ganOn, kung anO ung gustO mO.. minsan tadhana pa ang naglalayO sa'yo. Mahirap ba talaga mangarap? Mahirap ba talaga umasam ng simple? Mahirap ba talaga maging masaya sa gustO mO?
Dumadating ka puntong hindi mO na alam ang gagawin. Hindi mO alam kung kaninO ka lalapit. PrO andun pa rin sa puso at isip mO na hindi ka NYA papabayaan. A friend told me once "God is always on time" I always keep that in mind. Kaya di pa rin akO nawawalan ng pag-asa. Na sa darating na bukas, isang masayang ngiti na and mamumutawi sa aking mga labi.
PerO nagpapasalamat akO dahil nakatagpO akO ng mga totoong kaibigan. Di akO nawawalan ng pagasa kasi anjan ka. Kapit kamay! Parehas man tayO ng dinadala, ramdam kO na pilit lang nten pinapalakas ang loob ng isa't isa kahit alam natin sa sarili mismO, di din naten alam kung kelan nga darating ung panahOn o araw na hihihintay nten parehO.
Wag kang bibitiw! MalayO pa ang lalakbayin natin. Madame pa tayO pagsubOk na pagsasamahan. Madame pa tayong pangarap na magkasama nating tutuparin.
Wag malumbay. Hold On.......*dorabee*

i'm mishful this. :)

09.08.07. One fine saturday night. Dinner at Kimono Ken, Bluewave. :) It's was good though bitin. But I seriously had a good laugh again. Ang khuleet kc. haha! :p Memories. Memories. It's been so long time na din ata since the last time we hang out? (nyee, parang kelan lang?) HAHA! Oh! mishfulness kase. :) I gonna keep nlng those stuff? watcha think? I told you i gonna take pictures of u with that cute little umbrella stuff eh. tsk tsk. Ayan. sayang tuloy. Ala proof. Hehe. Ang cutey pa naman cgurO nun of we have photos of u with that small umbrella in your hair. HAHAHA! peace(^,^)Was it a coincidence that the color of the umbrella in our shake is the same colors that we are wearing? hehe. Nice naman. Kaya nga we both like it na and even made fun with it. haha. Me the yellow and you the red. wheeew! :DI enjoyed it and feel wappybappy. y'know. :)

One sunday afternoon.

1. What is it about you that people don't really notice?

*that there's mOre to me than what meets the naked eye. (i'm serious)

2. What do people commonly mistake you for?

*that sometimes they think i'm already working cos of not having a school uniform and there are times they think i'm still in highschool especially when i'm with my pair of sneakers. haha!

3. Are you insecure?

*there are times when insecurities creeps me, we cannot avoid it.
4. Do you think you're attractive?

*sometimes. but sometimes i feel fugly.

5. Do you find it easy to trust people?

*NO. absolutely.

6. Do you have a really big secret?

*yeah, i guess so.

7. If yes, how many people have you told about it?

*a few, of course.

8. How do you get mad?

*I had this mad face, with no smile at all. Then i became mataray na, with the raised eyebrows. But it doesn't last nmn for a lifetime. LOL.

9. What do you do when you're bored?

* music, net, sleep, eat

10. Do you enjoy doing nothing?

*yeah, sometimes. I love to be a bum but there are times when i wanna make lakwatsa and go anywhere else.

11. Are you comfortable being alone?

*yap! time to think and access what's going on in my life.

12. Do you think watching the sunset or the stars is fun?

*Yeah, for me that's the most serene moment i could have in my life. I can trade the beach but not the sunset and the stars. I love staring at it without a blink of an eye and start giggling. hehehe. I'm so shallow. I know. But sharing that moment with the most important person in your life would be the sweetest moment for me *wink*

13. Do you like the rain?

* nO. i just simple don't. :(

14. What can you say about poetry?

* it is an expression of yourself. I used to write poetry before but now, i think i let the passion dies in me. so sad.

15. Are you a phone person?

*before, but now i don't even touch the phone at home in a single day. HAHA! to busy.

16. Do you find it easy to express how you feel?

* when i'm happy, i just laugh out loud. When i'm mad, i just keep it to myself until i burst out. When i'm sad, i don't tell it to everyone else. So, it depends on how i feel.

17. What song best describes how you feel right now?-

" (I Wish I Knew How it Would Feel to Be) Free by LIGHTHOUSE

18. What impossible thing do you want to do right now?

*build a new house. A big one.
19. What is missing in your life right this moment?

* letting all the emotions flow. Moving on without a having second thought. Living my life the way i want it to be without hesitations.

20. What is the most important in your life now?

* i breathe, i laugh, i'm not numb, i have people around me that i'm pretty sure they care. :)

I do this cos i'm bored!

Three things that scare me:

1.Death
2.The unknown future
3. Destiny

Three people who make me laugh:

1. baby fritz
2. friends (karren, mayan, mae, jhune)
3. humble bee

Three Things I love:

1. my life
2. tears and joy,happy memories
3. photo trip, spontaneous getaway

Three Things I hate:

1. rain
2. inequality
3. careless talker

Three things on my desk:

1. cellphone
2. ipod
3. chocolates

Three things I'm doing right now:

1. surfing
2. music bum
3. friendster/multiply

Three things I can do:

1. i can make my artsy fartsy creation
2. i can do this..
3. and i can do that.. haha! fool.

Three ways to describe my personality:

1. unpredictable and moody
2. unsociable but friendly, i always smile but snob,
3. i' m a dork.

Three things I adore:

1. cute little stuff
2. personality
3. spontaneity

Random Monday!

holiday.having a secOnd thOught? nah! opcors not! manila. trinoma. wow! dat's new to me. first seen. tourguide? haha! ICECABY bhabee! hihi. deciding wat to eat. me:"you choose.." you: "nah, u nlng". khulet =). undecided. den you tell you like cheesey food. haha. then cheesey it is. hungry. pasta first. den the big thing. YUM! YUM! me: "you can eat all of dat so Go! haha". were full. preggy again. puff! yOc break. stroll. stroll. stroll. window w/o shopping. HAHA! no enough bucks to go on clothes hunting. you laugh, i laughed. i tease, you teased. :p movies. long line. rush hour 3 at 3:45. yOc break again. oh, it's already 3:30. I want a float at mCdo. tara. me:"you order apple green float, i'll just sit nearby. hehe." wtf! haha! sorry. you seems ashamed after you order. but it's okey. :) hahaha! it's green apple float pla. *wink* my bad! cinema. i laughed and i laughed coz i'm a dork. i admit it. and you!! You had seen the movie before. yOu didn't even tell me. haha! but it's ok.
strolled again. looking for watch? haha. yOc break again i think? am i cOunting?! hahaha! fool. garden of eve?.. hihi. fog. oh it's a mist pla. haha! i teased. wow fog. nice. hehe. but's it's good. cute. people was mesmerized i think? hehe. time to talked. we still laugh. i dunno why. enjoy. makukulit. the mOment? "FILL IN THE BLANKS" hahah! new trend? i knew you from then on. i got answers to questions. it's so nice of yOu to say every little thing. :)
rained. you hungry again! haha. slammers. wee burger. find a seat. yes master. haha. arc of intra? wat's dat? a result of your great imagination! hehe. full again. you had this appetite of a ..uhh.nevermind. oh shut up khaye! it's bad to stare. but i can't help to smile. hahah! peace. Hey! it's getting late. Oopps. time to leave. hehe.
'twas nice. fun. enjoy. laugh. tease. window shop. looking for books? haha. and the icacaby?..


it was no more a dream. *wink*

Nagbabalik.

Dumating ka sa buhay kO kung kailan di kO inaasahan. Kung kailan di kO akalain na ikaw pala yun. Mabilis, mailap, parang isang pitik lamang ng aking daliri ang mga pangyayari.

Ba't di ka na lang umiwas sa simula pa lang? Ba't pinaabOt kO pa nga ba sa ganitO? sa isang lihim.. At mananatiling isang tagO hangga't di kO binibitiwan ang pisi na patulOy na naguugnay sa aming dalawa ng una, sya na legal..sya na kilala ng mundO.

Patawad kung isa ka sa mga tagOng bahagi ng buhay kO. Patawad kung isa ka sa mga lihim kO na di kO kayang ibunyag sa madla o sa buOng mundo. Alam kO hirap ka din. Nguni't wala akOng maipapangakO na magandang bukas sa ngayOn. Pati ang pusO ay di siguradO kung kaya ko na bang sumugal.

Pero masaya naman tayO dba? Un nga lang..pigil, dahil tayO ay may sariling mundO kung saan doon naten pinagsasaluhan ang isang espesyal na relasyOn na tanging tayO lamang ang nakakaalam at nakakaintindi.

-ANONYMOUS

Sa ngayOn...

MalungkOt perO masaya. kuntentO perO my kulang. patulOy paren kahit mali sa paningin ng lahat. di alam ang isasagOt sa mga tanOng. sa mga espekulasyOn.

pilit tinatagO khit gustO ng umalpas ng damdamin. Pilit iwinawaksi kahit dun din ang tungO. Ngbubulag-bulagan upang di maramdaman ang hapdi at sakit. Upang kasiyahan ang manaiig.

Hindi iniisip kung anO ang kahihitnan. Basta damdamin ang binibigyang pansin. TakOt sa katOtohanan O takOt sa kalalabasan?

Ayaw mawala sa buhay, ayaw pakawalan. Di din siguradO kung kaya, kung kaya nga ba talaga.

Umaasa. nagdarasal. nagiintay.

Darating din ang panahOn na yun. Di nga lang alam kung kelan.

LIFE.


Let's enjOy life tO the fullest! every opportunity might nOt cOme Our way again.



Let's sieze the mOment before it gOne.



..and let's nOt lose hOpe. Be brave. Be different. be spOntaneous.

minsan isang araw.

I give myself a little pampering today. I've been into a salon a while ago and treated myself. I had my manicure, pedicure and a haircut!! Yey! I had my hair trimmed and ask the haircutter (which i turned out as my new friend cos we started cracking a joke) to put some body in my hair. I think my looks is getting boring plus the bangs makes my face itchy!! f*ck!

I was supposed to stay at school until 4:30pm cos Arvin (promap president) asked me to wait for him to brief us with the activity that we will be having for the org (i think, it's a room-to-room recruitment or advertising of the org) HEHE! but i didn't. (I'm bad) HEHE! I was planning to go to salon after my class. I just asked Karren to tell me tomorrow what happened.

I'm not blogging lately. I rarely used the computer. I can't even charged my ipod when it's battery keeps hunting me with the red sign everytime i used it. HAHA! I can't even tell what's been happening with this past days or weeks or months, i guess. That's the burden of not being connected to the internet most of the time. But, someday soon. You'll see. I'll be back here.

Out! Out!

I wanna go out. I want to go places. I want to have a good laugh. I want to see new things and try it out. In short, I want to have some FUN!! I want a new set of photos. I want something to look up and choose from. I want something to laugh out and be crap about it. HAHA! I want to spend a good time with friends. I want to share lots of happy moments with them.

Wtf! Such a nothing-to-do-gurl!! Too lame. :(

Inuman nah!

My last Saturday was awesome! Got to spend time with my friends. (College Friends, my blockmates actually). We all had a very good laugh over soo many bottle of beer at Beer Garden, Intarmuros. Bonding time with them. I was suprised how many people joined the fun. :) I never imagine we could still be all-together. As in together! They are the one which i could consider the closest friends in my college life. They are the one whom i shared my entire life in Mapua. All the pahirap, seatworks, defense, company study and of cors! quizzes. HAHA! Life will be never be this fun w/o them.

Pat, Pao, Yoyi, Paul, Pats and Maru were on the other table. They are a batch higher than us. Too much laughing. Asaran to the max! Umuulan ng beer! My! But it was really fun! Almost lahat game. Kwentuhan, Asaran, and picture mode! Damn! Too much of being a photo addict. I had them in my Mutiply.

I got home almost 12am. Good thing Yoyi and Pat were also in the same route as mine. Mariel and I have somebody to accompany us to the terminal. We were busmate. And a big thanks guys! :))

Mariel was broken hearted. And she shoved in tears. Epekto narin ng alak. *Uhmm, you can go through it mare. Just keep on living. It's not yet the end of the world.*


Oh sheesh! Pics! Pics!

MORE PICS @ my MULTIPLY.

Classroom panic!

Classes is on. Of course! were on a quarterm school so April is just the start of the 3rd term of the year. This week was just fairly fine.

We have this camwhoring at the classroom during the OSH period. No prof so i bring out my digicam and then the fun starts there! Damn! I miss this kind of trip. I upload lots in my Multiply.

Gurls, gurls, gurls. Pat is also there, sharing the fun. Zack was there too, acting as out director telling us what pose to do. HAHA! I got drained (well, literally) haha, coz of too much laughing. :)

More here.

Baptism and high school friends.

We attended baby dwyane's baptismal last sunday. I'm one of the ninang. He's my second inaanak. Addition to my gift's list. HAHA! Oh my my! I'm really getting older eh? I will be turning 20 this year. Can't imagine though. I still see myself as a sweet sixteen young girl. HAHA!

Reunited again with my highschool barkada. See each other again after several months. Mike, Pam, Paola and me are then ninangs and ninong of baby dwyane. :) Met up at the church. Chikahan, laugh trip, and photo freaks! Soo adik sa cam ang mga guys! I honestly and seriously spent lots lots of hours uploading and sending the photos that we had to their respective email! Damn! But, i'm not bitter. HAHA! *di ba halata*

Went to Festival Mall afterwards. Videoke trip. Singing even if were out of tune. Laughing real hard. Camwhoring again. Soo happy! Soo kukulit. Hehe.

More in my Multiply.

Passing by.

I'm back!! Well, i guess soo. haha! I try to update more here. School had already started.Yess! You heard me right, while others (and some of my friends) were still in the peak of their summer vacation, here I am and the rest of my schoolmates spending our time at the classroom while bearing the heat of the summer. So pathetic. haha! lolx!

The weather is really hot. As in HOTT! Seriously.

I actually have lots of things to share, things that's been going on with my life lately. Well, I guess i have lots of stuff to post and more pictures to upload soon! :) I'll just try to keep this blog posted. I'm not online most of the time. I just checked my mails, update friendster and the likes, but being online for a long period of time as of now is not i'm actually at.

I changed my layout again. I'm back to black. hehe. I just feel like seeing something new. Something different.

Ayun, i'll post next time. ciao! :)

I'll be gOne for a while but fOr sure i'll be back sOOn. :)

Lunch and new dvd's. Big YEHEY for me.

We had a bunchy lunch at Superbowl in Glorietta 4. The food were yummy I had a full lunch with Sherwin, Ate Shiela (his sister), Kuya Mark and his family. I was not supposed to come along but since I'm went by at Sherwin's place, I did have a free lunch with them *big smiles*. I want to go back there and bring my friends. I'm sure Karren would love to cos she likes to eat at different resto and try something new.

After lunch we walked by from G4 to Greenbelt 1 up to Corinthian Plaza and dropped by at Tita Beth's office. Wossh! I got excited for what Tita mentioned to us while having a little chit-chat at the lobby. She said they will be going to Bohol late July and she's thinking if we would like to come cos classes already begin for next school year by that time. Frankly, i would love to. And i'm already planning in my mind what to do. I would skip classes. HAHA! *I'm a fool* But that Bohol Trip would once in a lifetime offer. Tita Lorna and the two kids (yani and yna) will also come, Waaahhh.. I still have a term to save moolah for that grande trip. HAHA!

We went to Makati Square right after to buy dvd's. Ate Shiela run an errand to him. And guess what i bought? I already have the Season 1-2 of Grey's Anatomy, Prison Break and the most talk of the town Heroes! Oh yeah! I'm such an impulsive buyer. Maybe it's the result of long vacation for us. HEHE! I'm beginning to be a great bum at home. HEHE! But men! Now I have something to watch to ease my boredom ayt? Since summer outing with friends is kinda uncertain as of now.

Well, well, I should start kicking some ass. HAHA! I better bless all the dvd's that i bought and give my eyes an exercise cos it's really been a while since i watched tv shows and even movies. Life for me has been outside home but since it's vacation time my home sweet home would be my niche as of now. ciao!

BUM!

I sleep all day. Nothing to do. I'm starting to get bored at home. And i don't know what's wrong with my pc nowadays. The blogspot site is not showing up right. Well, part of it. The posting page is having a problem that's why i can't post lot of entries. kamusta naman un?! tsambahan lang!

My feet is itchy. I wanna go somewhere else. lakwatsera talaga. haha! I just played with my cutey nephew. His starting to get really makulit na. :) But we love him for that. And his big na. :) I can't imagine how fast he grow up. Babies are like that, you noticed every improvement that's going on with them. Like the way they speak, starting to crawl then stand up straight. HAHA! It's really fun playing with them though your patience is starting to boil up. Well, babies will always be babies. hehe.

I passed. Yess!!

Waahh. Grades are already online. I viewed mine through my mapua account. Thank God cos i don't have any failing grade. I was suprised with my grade in Ergo subject. Though I know i reached the passing (cos i let my score be corrected in Quiz1 to my prof yesteday through text and for sure she replied). The sad part was that, most of my classmates failed. It's just not right. Well, that's another part of the story. I gonna save it for another post.

Enrollment will be this coming week. Kamusta naman?! Ang gastos! tae! I told the parents that i will just have my enrollment at the start of class next month. I just payed my Finals this week. It's going to be a burden for the them if i gonna asked again for another money. Even if i have to fall in a long line in a very humid gym. :(

I gonna post some long ass entry next time. I will post pictures of World Light Expo after i'm done organizing my photos ok?.. byebye! :)