Starting all over again. :)

thinking out loud!

y'knOw, when the wOrld stops you doesn't have to stop with it. and when the world starts to shine again.. yOu just have to go on with it. :p

for the moment.

mentally exhausted.physically active.emotiOnally weak.spiritually lOst.

Let's talk about material things.

It's still not late to say my WISH LIST for christmas or if not for the coming year eh? :)

• make-ups (I loove it!)
• Indian bracelets (i've seen the store @ rob's place, ermita)
• a pair of scented flip flops (i've also seen this interesting slippers during the bazarre at World Trade)
• Sneakers!! is still cool for me!
• Hot wedge and comfortable flat sandals
• clothes! clothes! clothes
• Ackesoryz is LOOVEE!! *wink*
• Bags are adorable
• STILL perfume by j.Lo
• A laptop
• New phone! (yeah)
• Digital Camera
• or if not... digSLR! haha (i've been dreaming a lot)
• books! books! and lots of books!
• Gift certificate of beauty products (im vain)
• more dvds!
• Victoria's Secrets collection of lotion and perfume

and finally, i've been wanting to have:

• the green NIKE Jacket! (it's just soo cool!)

*sighed*

though i know i can't have everyrthing on my list, it's still not bad to give your christmas or new years wish lists. Who knows, Santa might read this and make my wishes come truee!! waaahh.. hehe!

happy holidays guys! :) *hugs*

My things-to-do-list.

for the coming year:

1. A day at Manila's Best
2. Photo trip at historic Intramuros, Fort Santiago, the japanese and chinese garden at Rizal Park and more!!
3. walk-a-trip at UP diliman (ayt dhey? :p )
4. moore bargain hunting!!
5. food trip a lot
6. Tagaytay Getaway!
7. Summer fun with high school buddies (imissdemalot!)
8. Pampanga's Best (zubic, dhey's place,beach)
9. SALE! SALE! SALE!
10. PyroLympics (i'm keeping my fingers cross that they gonna perform here again)
11. SUMMER loove!
12. Bumming some more? hahaha lol
13. Global Fun carnival
14. the world light expo 2008 (if they gonna have it again)
15. dvd marathon with the favorite series

I just find happiness in doings things that i love (who doesn't right?) Even if I fail so many times, i mean there are some things that cannot be fulfilled or maybe it is not yet bound to be, I never stop dreaming. maybe i'm stubborn that way or you may asks if ever i became tired in doing this. maybe yes. maybe not. Deep inside my thoughts, all the things that i wanna do will gonna happen. Maybe not this year or next year.. I will still wait.

Dreams might come true y'know. Maybe it's what I call a miracle if it ever gonna happen to my life.

how dos it feel..


Yahoooo!! I passed SPM, and infosys too! I made it. And I'm happy. Period. I dont like to rant about it. A happy sighed is enough. Not having a failing grade for this term makes my christmas merry, though.

Tenchu sir! =)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY to....SHEWIE!!!!

yes, you're special mention in my blog! kamon! hahah. happy happy 23rd birthday to you man! I wonder what gift tita and tito gave to you this time...hmmm, another gadget? iphone? haha! yeah, i keep on guessing.

Wishing you happy and peaceful birthday. (though i know you wouldn't even drop in my blog) Pathetic! hmp! hahah!

Just give my regards to tita dear ayt! =)

When it clashed in your face!

I HATE THE WORLD TODAY!! and i hated it..

just for now.

simple but complicated.



*It's good that the rain hasn't stop. It's good walking under it, with only your jacket on, so that people would not take noticed on how tears falls from the eyes of its beholder. :'( *sobbed*

Racing for the two!

• Mean
• variance.

Statistically speaking, these are the things that you have to know early in the morning to know if your company is in good shape or not. Then, if the results yield a good one, you can now enjoy your cup of coffee and start to read what the newspaper says about the world. ayt?Ü

thoughts.

What I got for the last quiz is that I don't know actually know if I should be happy or what. I've been in the passing score for the last three quizzes, i'm on the average of the passing mark. I can smile cos I somehow passed, my scores in the multiple choice really helped a lot. It pulled my mark. But then, I realized after a deep thought, I should aspire for the better: A higher grade than the ones I usually get. I should exertmore effort in my learning capabilities. I have to be more active, I think.

My perception or how I view things now is different on how I viewed it from the past. ( 2 to 3 years ago) for some reasons I might elaborate next time. The constant in the world is change. No doubt about it. And I know, I can do it once more. Be at my old self, the way I'm used to be..

SPM: Overdue!

At last! I got to post an entry. This is overdue since we have to reflect something about spm especially after the third quiz last saturday pa! hehe.

Quiz 3? waah, i don't know what to say, honestly.. I had studied the lecture. And I know I understand the essence of the whole topic. But when the questions were right in front of us, I've been digging my mind what exactly the answers to that. As in the ones that came from the book. But as my memory started to traced back, I can't specifically put the correct answers. I didn't memorize all those stuff. I knew I don't have to, as long as you understand what you're reading. So I put into words all I know about the questions being asked. Even if some of those were not the real answer. What can I do? I don't know what to write. I just followed my mind to put the things which I thought were the answers.

Time constraint is your enemy while in the spot, answering the questions. But i believed that it's shouldn't be a hindrance for you to express all the anwers that you think is right or according to what you have learned.

After the exam, people or classmates were not in the mood anymore. Everyone seems to put their answers incorrect. Everybody seems to be regretful. And I, was somehow affected to their reactions that I became doubtful with my answers too. :(

Temporary.

I had to change my layout so that the comment link would be visible. Sadly, i have to replace it with a template from blogspot cos the the one that i've been using before doesn't have any comment or trackbacks. It's important cos our prof will post a comment for Spm entries!

I''m having a problem even if I used Haloscan as a host for comment link! But it' s still ok! Grrr... I've bee working on it for hours! =( So, i have to use this template for the meantime.

We go for double!

I had a good date yesterday! t'was fun being with the person you actually love to be with. We met up at 2 o'clock in the afternoon for it supposed to be 12! Plans can sometimes be messed up y'know! that's why its better not to plan at all! haha! I think so. We had our late lunch at KKK at Mall of Asia. The food was good. It was my first time to eat there and I think I would go back. It's all pinoy recipe! Two-thumbs up! yeah! For the positive side, it maybe good that you insisted to eat at KKK instead at its nearby resto. haha! I had my tummy full-packed again! And i greatly thank to you for teasing me like hell as if I eaten the whole food that we ordered! hmp! hehehe! And me? I still wanna cuddle you over and over again even if you never stop grining like some thought keeps playing in your mind ( that I was really matakaw!)






We watched The Game Plan starring Dwayne "The rock" Johnson for the last full show in THX. It was awesome! I enjoyed the movie. =) As in. I liked how the story goes, it's twist, funny scenes, and life-breathing part when it actually touched my heart for hell. I really recommend you guys to watch this movie. And try to bring your dad with you so you can have the feel of how touching the story is for a father-daughter relationship!

When I speak.

malungkOt perO masaya. kuntentO perO my kulang. patulOy paren kahit mali sa paningin ng lahat. di alam ang isasagOt sa mga tanOng. sa mga espekulasyOn.

pilit tinatagO khit gustO ng umalpas ng damdamin. Pilit iwinawaks kahit dun din ang tungO. Ngbubulag-bulagan upang di maramdaman ang hapdi at sakit. Upang kasiyahan ang manaiig.

Hindi iniisip kung anO ang kahihitnan.TakOt sa katOtohanan O takOt sa kalalabasan?

Ayaw mawala sa buhay, ayaw pakawalan. Di din siguradO kung kaya, kung kaya nga ba talaga.

Umaasa. nagdarasal. nagiintay.

Darating din ang panahOn na yun. Di nga lang alam kung kelan.

I used to think about it over and over again.

Sometimes you prefer to be silent. To let all be an unspoken words. To just hide it in a place where no one could ever see, could ever feel. But no matter how you try, you just gonna feel you wanna shout it to the world wide world. Share the unbelievable feeling.. and perhaps make yourself be naked. Feelings. Happiness. Fears. Maybe it won't be bad to take chances. To gamble what you have. Regrets will come in the end no matter what.

But you have to try, even for once.

I'm still breathing.

HURRAY! HURRAY! I'm back (here in my old blog!) C'mon let's be happy! =)

Just for a thought!

I once shared with somebody my thought "may gusto ako gawin pero di kO alam kung anO!" =(. Call it pathetic or watever! But that's exactly what i'm feeling. It's like an itchyness you suddenly want to get rid off. It's a goal without a clear objectives, or, maybe i'm still in the process of identifyng or finding it within myself. What I really like, what I really want to be. You suddenly feel that way, and if you failed to do so, you're incomplete beneath. Contentment would be the issue. Self-satisfaction is the main dilemma.

Several terms from now, i would be receiving my college diploma. *hopefully!*. My dad asks me where do I want to work, what are my plans after graduation, when i'm going to have my most-awaiting-ojt for them and stuffs like that. And me being the a-little-bit stubborn daughter always give them the same answer as before "I still don't know" with the main mentality at the back of my mind "it's to early to think about that". But as time flies, i'm becoming aware why my parents keep asking me the same question whenever that topic blooms from nowhere.

I realized I should be thinking about my future. I should be mature in terms of perspective about life. I'm not getting any younger! Instead i should be moving forward. I should start considering that's there reallly a life waiting for me after college! It just depends which path will i take, which opportunity will i grab, and which destiny will I embrace. Either way, it may lead to failure or success.

Questions kept lingering in my mind: " What i really want to be, what I really want to do in my life." Somehow, i got answers! (of course) I want to work after collge (who else doesn't want right?) I want to earn money on my own. Stepping out of college means more responsibility, more freedom. Freedom to choose, to speak, to decide. Maybe that's what I'm anticipating all along. I want to express myself. It's like unlocking the chains that seems to be in your bare hands for so long. I know it was for my own good. But honestly, I did wait for the time when i will be old enough to do whatever i like! to say what's on my mind, to express who I really am!

Maybe I haven't decided what plans i'm going to follow after college. I know it's one step at a time. But one thing for sure, I will follow the things that will make me happy, that will keep me satisfied. I know life is a journey, and along the path you'll you gonna picked lessons that will change or make you a better person. But I believe that happiness leads to contentment. I may not have the grandest job or the highest person paid as long as i'm happy with what i'm doin, it all goes well. =)

Mga lagalag!

I looooove dis pic. We call it "Loser pic" haha! Ang kyut ni mumay dito. Pabida ang bruhaa!! hehe! lolz! Asa gitna kse. Pero ang kukulit namen. Walang kasawaan! Hay. kelan ka kaya mag kkabOypren mae?? waheheh! Anong kOnesksyOn?! Anyway, ayun! Yun lang naman ang ngyari sa mumunting paglalakwatsa namen! hehe..
*andun kame sa sidewalk. Sa gilid ng intramuros golf course. Kumakaen ng chicken skin na mabenta sa mga bruhaa! Umiisip ng sOlusyon sa problema ni dora. naghahanap ng sign. Para kame mga pulubi. haha! Para kame pinagsakluban ng langit at lupa! parang naubusan ng pamasahe pauwe! hahah! pero keri lang! magkkasama namen kame! =)) At sa hulog nga ng langit, dumating and mga frendship na guys. hehe. wala lang. kaya napadpad kame sa españa ng di oras! heheheh!*

Kapit kamay!

Pinipilit. Umaasa. MerOn pa rin liwanag sa dulO ng madilim na daan. Sa tuwing akala mO di kna makakabangOn, may mga taO paring pilit pinapatatag ang lOOb mO.Mga nagmamahal sa'yo. Talaga nga ditO mo makikita at mararamdaman kung sinO ang totoo at hindi sa mga kaibigan mO. Kung sinO ang handang dumamay at magmalasakit. Kung sinO ang gagawin ang lahat makita ka lang masaya muli.
PerO bakit ganOn, kung anO ung gustO mO.. minsan tadhana pa ang naglalayO sa'yo. Mahirap ba talaga mangarap? Mahirap ba talaga umasam ng simple? Mahirap ba talaga maging masaya sa gustO mO?
Dumadating ka puntong hindi mO na alam ang gagawin. Hindi mO alam kung kaninO ka lalapit. PrO andun pa rin sa puso at isip mO na hindi ka NYA papabayaan. A friend told me once "God is always on time" I always keep that in mind. Kaya di pa rin akO nawawalan ng pag-asa. Na sa darating na bukas, isang masayang ngiti na and mamumutawi sa aking mga labi.
PerO nagpapasalamat akO dahil nakatagpO akO ng mga totoong kaibigan. Di akO nawawalan ng pagasa kasi anjan ka. Kapit kamay! Parehas man tayO ng dinadala, ramdam kO na pilit lang nten pinapalakas ang loob ng isa't isa kahit alam natin sa sarili mismO, di din naten alam kung kelan nga darating ung panahOn o araw na hihihintay nten parehO.
Wag kang bibitiw! MalayO pa ang lalakbayin natin. Madame pa tayO pagsubOk na pagsasamahan. Madame pa tayong pangarap na magkasama nating tutuparin.
Wag malumbay. Hold On.......*dorabee*

i'm mishful this. :)

09.08.07. One fine saturday night. Dinner at Kimono Ken, Bluewave. :) It's was good though bitin. But I seriously had a good laugh again. Ang khuleet kc. haha! :p Memories. Memories. It's been so long time na din ata since the last time we hang out? (nyee, parang kelan lang?) HAHA! Oh! mishfulness kase. :) I gonna keep nlng those stuff? watcha think? I told you i gonna take pictures of u with that cute little umbrella stuff eh. tsk tsk. Ayan. sayang tuloy. Ala proof. Hehe. Ang cutey pa naman cgurO nun of we have photos of u with that small umbrella in your hair. HAHAHA! peace(^,^)Was it a coincidence that the color of the umbrella in our shake is the same colors that we are wearing? hehe. Nice naman. Kaya nga we both like it na and even made fun with it. haha. Me the yellow and you the red. wheeew! :DI enjoyed it and feel wappybappy. y'know. :)